01) Scared

This was my 2nd home-recorded album.

Music & Lyrics Solely By: Bradley Voorhees (As Vocal B). All tracks recorded mixed and mastered at A Stem From Basement Productions, by Bradley Voorhees (As Vocal B). Except track 2, co-mixed with SAFYRE.

Photography: Nitro. Album Design: B. Voorhees. A&R "Simply Influenced" SAFYRE & Nitro.

Surrendering All of Me
Verse 1:
It aint anybodyís job to fix up my head
It aint anybodies job to fix up this mess
I know no one can relate
This should be nobodyís fate
So damn hard to explain the way I think

Chorus 1:
Fearing everything that comes my way.
I don't see my thoughts justified.
What I fought to make I canít escape and now I'm lost inside.
And I can't see why I made you mine.
I gave you my eyes solely so you could see how I feel and what I believe.
And now you've turned on me and Iíve lived so blindly.
I've lost all parts of me. Underneath I'm incomplete.
I'm down on my knees begging to be free.
Your wrath has captured all that I see.
No soul of mine dwells in me.
I'm all that you made me.
And now Iím surrendering all of me.

Verse 2:
This should be nobodyís fate
to stand around and wait
for me to remember me before I went insane.
I can't ask no one to stay
to watch this shadow try to find his way
into the warm light of day.
Back to the happy place.

Chorus 2:
Scared of everything that comes my way.
Canít escape what I can't escape.
What I fought to make I canít escape.
And now Iím lost inside.
I want to come alive.
I made you mine.
And then I made you cry.
So I donít think that you should see me live this way
And watch me fall away.
Watch my soul get replaced.
Watch my fate turn to fake.
Iíve lost the will to proceed in this life.
All you see I am down on my knees
Begging to be free
Your wrath has captured all that I see.
No soul of mine dwells in me.
I'm all that you made me.
Iím surrendering all of me.

All of me yeah, all of me, all of me, surrendering

Scared
Intro:
What to say here? Iím scared of hello because Iím scared of goodbye. Iím scared to let love in

Verse 1:
I stand alone inside my room
Wondering if Iíll ever have you
Mesmerized by your touch
Captivated by your unseen love
And I feel that I think too much
And in my heart Iíll never give up

Hook:
My mind is racing
My heart is breaking
My legs are shaking
And Iím finally awakening

Chorus:
And Iím scared to try
Iím afraid that Iíll die
If you laugh at me
If you turn to leave
Oh baby I donít think I
will ever let you in
On my loveís crisis
Iím scared to let you in
Ďcause Iím scared of goodbye

Verse 2:
I pass you by in the hallway
So I turn to look and I catch your eye
And you waved and I just let you fly on by
Never even saying so much as a word of goodbye

Hook:
My mind is racing
And my heart is breaking
My legs are shaking
Iím finally awakening

Chorus:
And Iím scared to try
Iím afraid that Iíll die
If you laugh at me
If you turn to leave
Oh baby I donít think I
will ever let you in
On my loveís crisis
Iím scared to let you in
Ďcause Iím scared of goodbye

If You Were Me
Verse 1:
And life was so much easier
When I wasnít always upset
And time went so much faster
ĎCause I always had so much fun

Chorus:
But I, no I donít have shit anymore
And now, now my whole lifeís become a bore
Is there ever gonna be anything, anything more
What would you do if you were me?

Verse 2:
And life was like heaven
When I still had my sex-appeal
But times they are a changiní
I think I have to learn to deal

Chorus:
Cause I, no I donít have shit anymore
And now, now my whole life is a bore
Is there ever gonna be anything, anything more
What would you do if you were me

Bridge:
What, tell me what would you do
If you were me, if you were me

Black X
Hook 1:
Didnít you think itíd be that way
ĎCause I never knew that itíd be that way
Why do people hurt me
I forced myself to close you out
Why do people hurt me
And now Iíve forced you out

Verse 1:
Every time I give my heart away it ends up broken
Each and every time I get you to stay my eyes awaken
Every single time you start to leave oh I start shaking
Thatís why my mindíll never be at ease I gotta keep my baby

Hook 2:
I didnít know that this would happen the way it did
When you do me wrong
When you sing sad songs
Donít I seem to shut you out
And now that youíre gone
Iím left alone to sing this song
Didnít you think
Didnít you think before you spoke
Didnít you think
Didnít you think before you acted

Verse 2:
Every time we have an episode I wanna be alone
But each and every time I lay alone I need you to come home
Every single time you bare your soul I wish I didnít know
Thatís why this case of Ďusí cannot be closed I gotta keep my baby

Hook 3:
Why didnít you know
Why didnít you know
In the verses that Iíve sang
All the things that I am
Why didnít you know
Why didnít you know
And now Iím left alone
ĎCause you didnít know
You never knew me
And now youíve got a black X through your name

Deprived of Goodbye
Verse 1:
I sit questionful yet still answerless
I am pitiful howíd it come to this
Iím in a crying mood I miss my life with him
Only hours passed since my break from him

Hook:
Who would I be to let you back in
Where to draw the line on a number of chances

Chorus:
Deprived of goodbye
Now all is done
Deprived of goodbye
I have no home

Verse 2:
I sit angerful and also happy
I sit sorrow-filled yet no tears are seen
Iím in a closed up trance after this last chance
Iím at my breaking point with no time to relax

Hook:
Who would I be to let you back in
Where to draw the line on a number of chances

Chorus:
Deprived of goodbye
Now all is done
Deprived of goodbye
I have no home

Deprived of goodbye
Deprived of goodbye

Can't Compare
Verse 1:
I canít speak
I canít walk
I canít act
And I canít talk
Iím getting fat
My tan is gone
My eyes are shot
And my mind is lost
My hairs falling out
My nose is getting big
My small lips always pout
I know Iíve turned to shit
Iíve gotten ignorant
I act so bad straight from bliss
One big ass ainít got no hips
Turn you off as I swing my wrists

O-Chorus:
I know Iím oh so gross
Iím a trashy flake I know
I see why I donít have you, no
It makes sense what Iíve been told
Retarded sped ignorant you know
ďFaggot BĒ Iím nobodyís hero
Iím a lost cause a repulsive ho
I canít compare to any of you

U-Chorus:
Sit like a man
Walk like a man
Act like a man
Talk like a man

Verse 2:
I canít sit
I canít stand
I canít look
And I canít rap
Always crying
Iím always fighting
Iím also tiring
And my perspiring
My annoying traits
My constant mistakes
My odd figuring
And lack of reasonings
My talk-back tendencies
Overstepping boundaries
Hair-shameful colorings
My lack of money

O-Chorus:
I know Iím oh so gross
Iím a trashy flake I know
I see why I donít have you, no
It makes sense what Iíve been told
Retarded sped ignorant you know
ďFaggot BĒ Iím nobodyís hero
Iím a lost cause a repulsive ho
I canít compare to any of you

U-Chorus:
Sit like a man
Walk like a man
Act like a man
Talk like a man

Bridge:
Wont you go already
Ďcause I will always know
Please just leave

Live That Way
Verse 1:
You gave me spirit when I felt like such shit
And you made me aware of more than miserableness
You dig all I hated about me whether truth or not
You lied to make me feel good each and every time on the spot

Hook:
Desperate times call for desperate measures
Iíve learned I donít need your lie-ful pleasures
All I really wanted was some really hot lips
I am co-dependent I canít seem to change it

Chorus:
You let me live that way
And that nothing about me needed to change

Verse 2:
You used that hot bod to mesmerize me
So that Iíd give into all that you wanted like money
You still bring out my smile though that youíll never know
You manipulate everything I was smart to let you go

Hook:
Desperate times call for desperate measures
Iíve learned I donít need your lie-ful pleasures
All I really wanted was some really hot lips
I am co-dependent I canít seem to change it

Chorus:
You let me live that way
And that nothing about me needed to change

Overgiving
Intro:
Dude, I so donít know what happened to me. But I think that Iíve changed, and Iíve become soft, and I think that I might need a little bit of counseling. Just a little

Verse 1:
I gave and I waited for you my love
Hesitated then okayed it for you my love
Real tough time
Distinguishing what is right

Hook:
I waited for you oh so patiently all the time
I saved everything for you for you tonight

Chorus:
Overgiving am I
Overgiving am I
Overgiving am I
Overgiving am I

Verse 2:
I stayed and replayed these last 5 months in my mind
I think Iíve realized that I love you but not like
We really fucked ďusĒ up
And I decided that itís not really all my fault

Hook:
I waited for you oh so patiently all the time
I saved everything for you for you tonight

Chorus:
Overgiving am I
Overgiving am I
Overgiving am I
Overgiving am I

Bridge:
How long am I gonna fuckin give
Will you always treat me like shit
How long am I gonna live like this
Will you ever appreciate it
How long to me will you be missed
Will I ever call you and give in
I donít like these graves that I dig
Why is no one there when I need them

Chorus:
Overgiving am I
Overgiving am I
Oh yeah

Misjudged You
Intro:
A moment of silence for your child

Verse 1:
They say time heals you in the end
And I never wanna lose your love again
You left me Ďcause you said that we grew apart
I thought friends were supposed to always love you

Hook:
I guess I misjudged you
I gave you way too much credit

Chorus:
Your friendship was a waste of my time
Your so called truths they all became lies
What the hell was I thinking back then
Silly to believe you were capable of being my friend

Verse 2:
They say heart is the soul of music
And good times are all built around it
So I took that and I held onto it
But without my friends whoís here to hear it

Hook:
I guess I misjudged you
I gave you way too much credit

Chorus:
Your friendship was a waste of my time
Your so called truths they all became lies
What the hell was I thinking back then
Silly to believe you were capable of being my friend

Run From Him Faster
Verse 1:
Iíll never love that way again
I really never stood a chance
Iíd go over to your house late at night
Iíd sit on the wall and sing you a lullaby
Romance like that happens in the movies
Itís like my movie in which you are starring
Never cared but always there to remind me
Not scared to walk by me without talking
Now I think Iím ruined for a lifetime
You were truly truly really truly not right
I could be the hottest guy and youíd still not be mine
Bounce my head off floors and walls that night of the crime
I sang ďlocked up but innocent in Godís eyesĒ

Chorus:
Reggie Blanford
Rascal the Rapper
What a disaster
Run from him faster

Verse 2:
I kick my ass when Iím reminiscing
Hard to think that guy was actually me
Iíd sit and wonder what you were like in bed
Iíd practice techniques to give you the right head
Dudes like me donít come around that often
Ones whoíll give everything for a love like this
Never understood what you really wanted
I shut myself down if I have to be honest
On real hot nights I feel like Iím reminded
Of my love for you when we were only teenage kids
Could have made the hottest couple south of the bridge
Cried my ass off thinking bout you all the damn time
Picturing us made me lose the rest of my mind

Chorus:
Reggie Blanford
Rascal the Rapper
What a disaster
Run from him faster

Keep on Goin'
Intro:
Whatís going on baby? Just got home from class. What you packing baby? You doing laundry or something? Baby wait. Where you going? Baby Yo! [Door slamming shut]

Verse 1:
Tiptoeing horrified, slowly
Iím breathing so hard and, rhythmically
Iím shaking deep down within me
Iím giving in so much and, gracefully
Iím making up for my ways
Trying to fix all of my mistakes
So I donít end up alone and insane
ĎCause I need you to stay
Yes I need you to stay

Chorus:
Iím gonna keep on goin
Donít mind the weight Iím pullin
When youíre down I will notice
Itíll make me keep on goin

Iím gonna keep on goin
Donít mind this weight Iím pullin
When youíre down I will notice
Itíll make me keep on goin

Iím gonna keep on goin
Donít mind the weight Iím pullin
When you are down I will notice
Itíll make me keep on goin

Iím gonna keep on goin
Donít mind this weight Iím pullin
When you are down I will notice
Itíll make me keep on goin

Keep on goin
Keep on goin

Verse 2:
Iím crying when youíre not looking
Keep all my fears inside
Iím trying my best to keep us alive
I sleep so good at night
Iím giving my all just to keep you well and satisfied
So I donít lose you one night and become dead inside

Chorus:
Iím gonna keep on goin
Donít mind this weight Iím pullin
When you are down I will notice
Itíll make me keep on goin

Iím gonna keep on goin
Donít mind this weight Iím pullin
When you are down I will notice
Itíll make me keep on goin

Iím gonna keep on goin
Donít mind this weight Iím pullin
When you are down I will notice
Itíll make me keep on goin

Iím gonna keep on goin
Donít mind this weight Iím pullin
When you are down I will notice
Itíll make me keep on goin

Itíll make me keep on goin
Keep on goin'

Selfish Am I
Verse 1:
Iíve learned my lesson now can I be free
To grow from my mistakes what can I say

Hook:
So many reasons why I cannot understand myself
And the thoughts Iíve got up in up in my head
Continuing ignorance of self and surroundings
Continuing scares and fears got my heart pounding

Chorus:
Listen to this song as I whine
How selfish am I
Should sing about pain other then mine
This song should be labeled asinine

Verse 2:
Addictions all one right after another
My frequent overwhelming big time freaks out

Hook:
So many reasons why I cannot understand myself
And the thoughts Iíve got up in up in my head
Continuing ignorance of self and of my surroundings
Continuing scares and fears got my heart pounding

Chorus:
Listen to this song as I whine
How selfish am I
Should sing about pain other then mine
This song should be labeled asinine

Listen to this song as I whine
How fucking selfish am I

Listen to this song as I whine
How selfish am I
Should sing about pain other then mine
This song should be labeled asinine
Listen to this song as I whine
How selfish am I
I should sing about pain other then mine
This song should be labeled asinine

Surrendering All of Me (Acappella)
Verse 1:
It aint anybodyís job to fix up my head
It aint anybodies job to fix up this mess
I know no one can relate
This should be nobodyís fate
So damn hard to explain the way I think

Chorus 1:
Fearing everything that comes my way.
I don't see my thoughts justified.
What I fought to make I canít escape and now I'm lost inside.
And I can't see why I made you mine.
I gave you my eyes solely so you could see how I feel and what I believe.
And now you've turned on me and Iíve lived so blindly.
I've lost all parts of me. Underneath I'm incomplete.
I'm down on my knees begging to be free.
Your wrath has captured all that I see.
No soul of mine dwells in me.
I'm all that you made me.
And now Iím surrendering all of me.

Verse 2:
This should be nobodyís fate
to stand around and wait
for me to remember me before I went insane.
I can't ask no one to stay
to watch this shadow try to find his way
into the warm light of day.
Back to the happy place.

Chorus 2:
Scared of everything that comes my way.
Canít escape what I can't escape.
What I fought to make I canít escape.
And now Iím lost inside.
I want to come alive.
I made you mine.
And then I made you cry.
So I donít think that you should see me live this way
And watch me fall away.
Watch my soul get replaced.
Watch my fate turn to fake.
Iíve lost the will to proceed in this life.
All you see I am down on my knees
Begging to be free
Your wrath has captured all that I see.
No soul of mine dwells in me.
I'm all that you made me.
Iím surrendering all of me.
All of me yeah, all of me, all of me, surrendering

©2005-2018 Bradley Voorhees
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